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March 21, 2010

Wow, this month’s been a rollercoster! Had so many ups and downs but I’m more positive towards life, and with that, I am forever grateful to my Life Coach!

February 14, 2010

I’m getting used to being a vegetarian now. Hopefully, I can try to become a vegan too. BUT, I’ll take it slow, sooo slow.

Life this past few days is unstable, I am struggling so much and I am so confuse specially with my career path. I need a total make over, no no, not that thing. Not going to the spa or salon, the other make over… that’s what I am trying to say. I need to re-model my life, hope you get what I mean.

January 31, 2010

I and Nico talked and finally ended whatever relationship we had. I never thought that closures could be so painful. My eyes leaked uncontrollably.

Dec 28, 2009

I wish I never knew that secret. Now I have to keep the guilt for the rest of my life, or for as long as it is not yet revealed. Only one person knew how I feel about keeping it, because he’s the only one I can really trust.

Dec 21, 2009

I am sick today. I feel tired and all. I wish I could rest, but I have no holidays. I went to church last night.

Dec 17, 2009

Sigh, it’s been a long time. I am still struggling, but I will be fine. Christmas is almost near, and I just marked two more in my To Do List. I don’t know if I am happy nowadays. I just let the time pass me by. I need time to think.

Sept 21, 2009

This is hard, but I can do it! I’ve been lazy these past few days, and I need to overcome it. I should read more writing manuals and should start materializing my thoughts into words. They just go by and I forget them easily. What am I thinking? Sigh. Negative energy is all around me. Mourn. Suck it up. Forget. Move On!

Sept 17, 2009

I couldn’t find the book, and I hate it. My cousin kept cracking about my mantra, and I don’t care. I am happy, though I haven’t seen my life forming yet, but it’s okay, everything is moving slowly. At least I am trying. I’ll try not to give up.

Sept 16, 2009

I broke up with my ex. It was time to let go, and who the hell I am to think that he will ruin his life if I leave him? He’ll move on, and I did what’s best for us, most importantly what’s best for me. I’m moving on. I didn’t cry, I cried about it many times already and that is enough.

Sep 13, 2009

Book about life. TUESDAY. I’ll get it. I will. Remove Maybe, Perhaps, Probably, I’ll see in my dictionary. These words are not good energy.  Speak and act in the affirmative.

Sep 12,2009

Okay, now I need to choose 3 from my list. Three that I can work out until the 25th. She suggested some and two of those are actually what I chose too. I changed one though. Those are what I want to do for now. Baby steps. I must not forget.

Sep 10, 2009

She said she had a Life Coach. And that made me realize that maybe I need one too. And when she said that I need tough love and kick in the ass I knew I found my LIFE COACH as well, and with that, I am forever grateful. After the mind bugging “Who are you?” she asked me yet another difficult question “What are you?” I answered, but I don’t know if I answered the question right. Sigh

Sep 9, 2009

Today I met a very beautiful person over the internet. I have been reading her works, and then it just happened. I just realized she understand what I am going through in my life right now. And then she asked me “Who are you?” and I didn’t know what to say because I don’t know who I am.